Oh my gosh... Last night was officially my last ever show with the mighty Delirious? After a 6 day tour of Australia it was time to take a final bow and thank the 4 guys that I have not only played music with for the past 15 years but to say goodbye to my 4 best friends that have changed my whole life. I truly will never ever be the same, I am a better person for knowing these fine men.

After a monstrous version of 'Investigate' It was time to take a bow, as I stood at the front of the stage the emotion become to much for me and I found myself standing in a huddle of tears knowing that it really had come to an end.

Thank you all, All I ask is that you continue to make history.

With respect and love...

Stew the Smeezer

We left the gold coast at 5am thankfully before we got to really appreciate one of the most beautiful places on the planet! (or we may not have wanted to leave)

Arriving in Adelaide we were taken down to the paradise church building, singing guns and roses on the way...even though it was a church...and not a city...

A highlight of the day for me was the two hour slot we made in the middle of the day...just the five of us...probably for the last time (with Stew anyway) having lunch on our own on the road in a foreign country. Rituals are good and necessary!  So we reminisced about the last 15 years of being on this delirious rollercoaster... laughed... remembered... celebrated!!!

The gig was excellent having a whole 2 hours to fill, we had fun slotting in songs we don’t always get a chance to play like Inside Outside (that was for you Baz!)

I enjoyed playing all god’s children tonight, as I at long last sussed a decent live guitar loop...creating music in the studio is one thing...playing it live and being happy with it is another...i am never satisfied!

As I sit on the plane back to Sydney, contemplating our two sets today and a final round of Australian golf tomorrow morning, I’m struck that I’m sharing the stage with Stew for the last time...
A marker will go in the ground today...tomorrow will (and needs to look) different... it’s not a simple transition... it’s re-invention.

When I was informed that Delirious? was coming to the Gold Coast Australia to help Metro church celebrate it’s second birthday and launch it’s very first album, I said “Cool… Who’s Delirious?” I thought I had asked a fair question until was told I need to have a good hard look at myself and I was possibly the only Christian chick in Australia who needed to ask that question. I got the strong impression that I may as well have asked who U2 is. So these guys are a big deal? Got it. Moving on now.

Shortly after this I was informed I would be responsible for looking after Delirious? backstage at the event. I can only imagine hard core fans thinking that this borders on social injustice. Wouldn’t my friend Ashlee who is a self confessed Delirious nut, owns every single album and attributes her decision to become a Pastor as a result of Delirious?’ ministry be far better suited to this task? One would think so. But nup. It was yours truly that got the honor. Did I do a good job??? It’s debatable. But here are a few things I learnt:

 Firstly, you really shouldn’t compare nursing stories. MEN do not handle it well. Drummer Stew told me his wife is a nurse. Nurses have a bizarre fascination with the macabre. We should keep it to ourselves, but when encouraged cannot help but share and compare…the more disgusting the better. So I shared. My bad…Sorry I grossed you out guys. Secondly, I learnt that one should pay attention to who plays what at sound check, and confusing the Bassist for the Guitarist is undeserved and just not cricket!!!! (Speaking of cricket, Australia will flog England next season). I learnt that towels go missing. I learnt that tour managers can be good at their job AND very likeable. I learnt that Martin and Stew do a very good interview and have a great sense of humor. I learnt that Stew likes banana and strawberry smoothies and he is leaving. I learnt these guys don’t just blow your head off with awesome songs of worship, they also happen to be the real deal away from the public eye. I learnt that every second is an opportunity to impact and bless the lives of others whether you are on a big stage or standing in a hallway with a stranger. I learnt that I have been complacent and way too comfortable on my well worn saintly couch.  I learnt that I want to stop saying “I” all-together and die to myself all over again so God can use me for His glory, for His Kingdom… Not a bad learning curb for one day huh?

If you were wondering whether or not you made a difference on the Gold Coast, then stop. Thank you. It was a pleasure and honor to meet you all and now you know that at least one person’s life has been blessed because of you. You are ok for a bunch of Poms. ☺

Hello, after 3 days in the umbrella seasoned city of Sydney we entrusted the Australian aviation system and found some sunshine in the wonderful Melbourne.

Melbourne feels like Brighton with London being Sydney or Philadelphia with Washington being London. The place has soul and a river with a nice little run along side it, like an old friend whom you forget how dear they actually are.

Dressing room conversations were intense before the gig tonight, musicians talking as if they were theologians, never a pretty sight. In resent days we have been challenged by a great man called Rabbi Joseph, a man who's life has stretch our minds, world and souls. He has inspired us to follow our own Rabbi with new energy and passion. These conversations were in full swing when our tour priest, Ian cattle summoned us to the stage, the dialogue followed us through the corridors and into the little room behind the stage full of empty flight cases, old photocopiers, monitor wedges and cardboard boxes full of random items. We are living in a world somewhere between the questions and the answers, uncomfortable yet very healthy. I guess martin put it pretty well about a decade ago with the lyric "I'm on the mezzanine floor, never been here before, it's a lonely place, but a house full of grace"